Today You Are Here: Enough

Yesterday was a stay at home, do-nothing kind of day. The daydream kind, when all your work commitments are canceled and all your personal goals are met by 9:30 a.m. and the entire day stretches gloriously open before you. Coffee refills, couch sitting, novel reading, afternoon napping, and pleasant ambles to the post office marked this unexpected day off.

Today things didn’t go as planned. The appointment ran long. Another appointment came up. Schedules got switched. Carefully crafted agendas unraveled and I am left scampering after the loose pieces the day shook out of place.

On both these days there is a question that grates at my subconscious. That nudges the corner of my thoughts. One thing I ask myself at the end of each day, no matter what it looked like.

Was it enough? Did I do enough? Has enough been accomplished? Can I check enough off my list? Do I have enough to show for the day I just lived? Am I enough?

A friend and I sat in the car in horrible I-25 traffic on a Saturday evening. Driving north to celebrate an upcoming wedding we barely notice the stopped cars in front of us as we catch up on our ordinary lives. Both working less conventional jobs, both accountable only to ourselves for how we spend the chunks of time at home during the day. We both wonder if we’ve done enough when we get to the end of it.

I want to let whatever I do each day be enough, she says.

Yes. My head nods and my heart agrees. Whatever I do. Whether it is much or little. Whether it is exactly what was on my to-do list or something completely different. Whether I have stacks of accomplishments or nothing done at all.

We finished the do-nothing-day with an episode of the Office and a bowl of sweet cereal. Some belly laughter to close out our night. I turned out the lights on another day lived, feeling like I had nothing to show for it. It wasn’t enough, was it? The hundred pages of fiction, an episode of a sitcom, a slightly-more rested body, and extra calories from the cereal. I could have done more.

Let whatever you do today be enough.

Not enough because our work is meaningless, because it is of no value, because it doesn’t matter if we’re lazy. Enough because we are enough. We are the handiwork of God, masterfully crafted as a piece of art, chosen and dearly loved, valuable and worthy in his eyes. We are enough because we are his.

{This is a part of my Today You Are Here series. Join me over here for the 31 days of October as we practice being present together. Or enter your email address below to have updates sent directly to your inbox!}